I'm not the poet dammit...

over the past couple of weeks i have been reading too many research proposals about cancer, its effect on the population, treatments, the economic impact of treatment, the toll of treatment, the plight that is cancer...etc.its making it so i can hardly sleep....its weird how cancer has become very personal for me than just these research proposals i read....those statistics are starting to become my peer group....scary....i'm not really afraid of death..i mean i don't want to die ...perhaps its because i think i've lived my life to the fullest...i've treated people fairly well i hope...of course i don't want to die...cause i really want to see "KIM"S CONVENIENCE" at the soulpepper theatre in a couple of weeks...but i am not sure that i would want to go to WAR WITH CANCER...its a battle that i don't want to engage in....first off its kind of like the CONSERVATIVE party...so dictatorial.....keeps what its doing so secret.....and then throws stuff at ya.....and of course we throw it chemotherapy so we can OCCUPY OUR BODIES.....so what would i do if i were faced with some of these treatments...that make you sick, tired, look skelet al.  .....what would i do...i don't know...but this thing keeps rolling around in my head...

COLON SOLONG I HEARD THE NEWS TODAY

COLON SOLONG CHEMOTHERAPY

COLON SOLONG THERE MUST BE A BETTER WAY

COLON SOLONG IS THIS THE WAY WE PAY

COLON SOLONG WOULD I WISH FOR ONE MORE DAY....

i mean no disrespect to anyone...its the way my mind thinks about complex problems..i have to put them into some cute little pattern so i can deal with them....this is how i got through LIFE...whenever i was faced with something traumatic i alway have to frame it into something else so i can deal with it....so please no one take offense....although i have no pics with me and the giant COLON we had at MARS for increasing awareness to colorectal cancer screening...here is me at the entrance of MARS..taken by Javi Urano, a wonderful friend visiting from SPAIN...

one more thing.... a giant colon came to visit us at MaRS...and i wanted someone to take a picture of me with it.....so there should be a picture here...it was for all of us not to fear....colorectal screening...brilliant idea....and i am so sad because i had so many ideas for cards...

ghetto idea 1: a picture of ME in a HAMSTER suit standing in front of GIANT COLON...caption....WHO"S COLON AM I?

ghetto idea 2:  a pic of ME with the GIANT COLON...caption....i wanted to go to COLOGNE!

ghetti idea 3: a pic of me with boxing gloves punching the POLYPS in the GIANT COLON...caption...fighting cancer....